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[17 May 2004|01:52pm] |
I love you amanda I dont care what other people think and alisia was a very long time ago it was like in the 8 th grade so yah any ways you mean a lot to me more than ever right now so... you know that you are the last thing that i want to lose and smile for me will you just a little one for your slef.
And I am sorry if you had a bad weekend. Sleep well and i love you.
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[24 Apr 2004|07:29pm] |
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To day is a good day iam going to Elsol its a great mex. restront and ive rented jack ass and underworld so iam having a good day. Also i want to say that i love my girl and if you have a prob;m with it then deal with it.
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[22 Apr 2004|12:29pm] |
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hey whats going on everyone that reads my journal. i dont know whats going on lately but iam tried of being tried. yes i do wish that me and my girl could spend more time toegther but i understand now that she is busy and accept that and if any one has any thing to say about me and her say it to my face. Dont be such a bitch and say that me and her arnt worh any thing and that shes not my friend or iam not her friend because she is. so back off go please your self because your just jelious because were young and in love.
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[19 Apr 2004|02:01pm] |
Prom was a lot of fun thank you very much amanda. well i will try to write more later so bye.
Love you Amanda
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[12 Apr 2004|11:44am] |
hey what is going on today nothn here just hanging out in the libary thinking about my baby ive been thinking about her for ever. (lol) hey bab'a you know its ok to be upset and last night dont worry about it. But you know that i lov'a.
Any ways i ve had a good week you know that felling that you get when you know something is going to last and you want to jump up and down well ive had that feeling all week except for once and iam not worried about it because stuff happens.
I wish i could help more often with some people but some time you just have to let it flow or your felling of doubt can stop the flow of things but it doesnt mean you shouldnt try. i dont know what iam talking about but i hope that, that person will be ok, if i lost them i dont know what i would do with out them as a friend and a partner. I hope they understand why iam tring to help.
But through the blackest nights i will hold her hand and stand there till i dont know when but...........hope is all i could ask for, i love you!!!!!!!!!!
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[07 Apr 2004|01:57pm] |
hey every one its been awhile so let me sum things up i went to Merytal Beach to suprize Amanda she was excited i guess i spent all spring break with her it was so great.
well i love her to death and i wnat her to know that if anything happens she can trust me and i can trust her i just worry a lot and i am sorry but i think that some times this is to good to be true because every one eles has back stabed me so its hard i just want you to know that. ok well got to go.
love you
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[27 Mar 2004|09:17pm] |
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I am going to have to leave here soon for Cinncinate ,OH for my grandmal she is in a slot tournament this week i guess she is feeling lucky so i d-sided to write a little before i have to so here it is. To who ever reads this let them know that i am "in LOVE" with Amanda and post a commit please to let me know that you will tell every one you know that i LOVE AMANDA and only her. And "when" i see her again i will pick her up and give her a big hug and a big huge kissssssssssssssss no no not a wet one guys but may be just A "little" one. But i love her and i want her to know tHAT I AM NOT THE REASON but she is the reason that i have become a better guy and she is the reason i get up after a hard day and dont want to get up just seeing her make me fill like iam inviceable like superman.
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[26 Mar 2004|09:25pm] |
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I miss her so much already what am i to do with out her for the next "week". But she is so good to me i can trust her so much and admit alot of stuff that i am proud to say like i love her Thats kinda new to us but i hope that the felling that i get when i say it will not fade out any time soon.!!!!!!!!!!!!!! But I am "unpredictab" and "love you"
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[23 Mar 2004|12:03pm] |
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hey every one what is going on today nothn here just hanging out in the libray doing nothn at all. Just thinking about every thing and how tried i am thinking abuot nothn. and every thing and then nothing again. its like a switch off then on off then on. I wish "you" didnt have to go to pracitce all the time but iam glad its something you like to do. its to bad that we cant do something this week; like coming over, or something. I wish we could. but thats the way the world turns. i can except it its all "gravy"LOL LOLO LO LOLOLOLOLOLOLLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOOLOLOL that was good enuogh.But i love you. bye
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[21 Mar 2004|08:36am] |
Hey whats going onnothing here just woke up and getting ready for church. WEll i love "you" and its true every thing that i say to you now will be true just like i hope me and you will be for the rest of our high school years. I hope that you dont shed a tear over anyting that happends because it will probable be my falt. Any thing that happends from now on i hope that you will remeber for the rest of your life. Because i know that i will.and only cause its you that i will remeber the time and places we went and the whole time i could keapt my eyes on you. well got to go my words are short but i could never run out of words to discribe of i fill for you. but i will leave it as this I LOVE YOU.
I dont want to make you say any thing that you dont want to so dont fell rushed.
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[18 Mar 2004|01:53pm] |
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Man tody iam so freakn tired. I want to go home and go to sleep so bad but i have another period of school it sux so bad but its better then being home. Iam going to go home and go to sleep unhook the phone cord and sleep sleep sleep. But where do you have to drawl the line inbetween school and home work i dont think that some teachers think that we only have to do there home work when we get home well there wrong. I dont care what anyone eles thinks!! O by the way i hope you get better Amanda I hate to see you so so sick i really wish i could do something for you like come over and baby you LOL just mess'n O by the way "Mother of God" "candy bars". LOLO LOLOLOLOLOL Well take care of your self. I really really really care about you, Well good luck with practice.
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[17 Mar 2004|12:31pm] |
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today is going so slow what am i going to do? Iam tried i dont think ill beable to make it through computer apps. I have church today its going to be fun.... i guess but i had a wounderful time having Amanda over to watch a movie thats i so halairieous(?) The Holy Grale its good I dont think i will ever get enough of Amanda in a good way well got to go bye bye.
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[16 Mar 2004|01:15pm] |
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Why does every one have to yell in Computer apps. i cant stand it where is the love? LOL this is so gay come on shut up. its geating a little bit quiter AAHHHH thats a lot better. Man I think that iam falling for this girl iam telln ya. Iam telln ya, she wounderful to me I think i can trust her now. I think that i can fully trust her with almost everything. She is pretty near about me trusting her with everything. I wont her to know that i really care about her and i would go to the ends of the earth because i know she wouldnt be just playing with me. Or would she LOL I hate people that dont know what there doing in computer apps because we have to stop what we are doing for the day and explain to every one whats going on and it takes all day because we hve freakn loud mouths in class. Well i dont know???? I wonder if i will be able to get a kiss today after school? probably not!
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[15 Mar 2004|01:13pm] |
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I had a good weekend!! i had amanda come over to my house an watch super troopers. Then we just sat around and hung out for the rest of the night till about 10:35 then saterday i had Brad come over to go see secert window with johny deep it waws an ok movie but it had no plot what so ever but it had a cool squrial in it. Thats the cool part but after that she came over fora while and thats my girl friend and i walked her out to her car and we huged then i was letting go of her and she was stil holding on to me and then when she let go then i lookeed at her and she kissed me i was so happy. well got to go love ya
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[12 Mar 2004|12:03pm] |
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Iam so hungry right now you would not believe it!!!! I am goign to go see the new Johnny Deap movie tomorrow i guess iam not sure though. thats if I can get like 7.00 to go and it would great. Well as Amanda says Johnny Deap is great. Hes ok well ......I admit that hes more then ok hes freakn awsome. there you happy it wasnt easy to say it though so dont ask me to do it again. what am i doing no one told me to say that. Iam so stupid iam talking to my self again(damn it) I cant spell etheir.!!Dang it!!!! Well any ways?? I need to save my face so bad its like a sharp rock. If iam getting close at all to Amanda then i need to save my ulgly face LOL like she would ever let me not that iam saying that she is mean or any thing at all but like she is just to good looking for me and so pretty. Why does she like me at all i dont know what she sees in a guy like me but if she want to go out then thats fine with me iam going to enjoy it while it last. But i wanted to go out with her probably before she started to like me at all it was the very first day off the new samester she is like one of the best things..... well she is the best thing thats happened to me in a long time. yes its true you are if your reading this. Iam talking to you, you know how iam talikng to.
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[11 Mar 2004|12:13pm] |
She is something specail o yea.!!!! By the way Amanda (YEAH) (O K) LOL so what should i talk about to day that the fact i am tried but iam happy thats all that maders right now. I went to church last night and there was this girl and she told me her friend thought that i was "cute" LOL. She is 13 years old! o my gosh what is up with women today they look 19 and are 13 what is up with that i guess its because of the Bow-tox LOL that stuff will kill you let me tell yah. And all it is, is pig fat. UHHH let me see i want to look older when iam in my early teens but want to look 30 when iam 60 come on Chaire give it up your music career is over and done with. you dont need to have 30....... well ok lets go with something more real say 130 plastic surgeries on you face and maybe 13 on your bum. LOL NOw lets get serious LOL like thats ever going to happen.. NO NS lets be serious. I cant wiat till tomorrow I get to have you know who over if she doenst have to go to a praty for one of her freinds iam not saying i dont want her to go i want her to go and hope that she has a good time , if she does go. LOL. But if she comes over ummmmmm????? In my dreams Iam even lucky she talks to me. But the part that sux is the fact that i had to chose in between two people i dont like hurting peoples feelings i feel real real bad when i do. HUUUUMMMM maybe some Bow-tax will make me feel better HOld on while i go get some. PLEASE. I have a joke: How did thje dumb blond die racking leafes.........I cant spell but iam not BLOND.....she fell out of the tree.!!!!!!!!!!!!LOLOLOLOLOLO
ok that was stupid i know i will never tell that again. The next time i write to you is going to be in COmputer Apps. So i am probably going to have to go here soon. Or is the Liberain doesnt kick me off for good... well the rest of the year...
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[10 Mar 2004|01:13pm] |
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Yeah i have a girl friend i have a girl friend. Iam so happy!!! She is wounderful and beautiful. What eles can i say? Iam so happy that she really does like me iam so happy. Iam in comp. apps. as always. sowhat do i do now she makes me nervious but a cool nervious. I like the felling of being liked. iam having a good day! I hope that every one eles is haveing a good day too. Chelsea, Kat, and everyone that reads this. What movie should we watch if she comes over this weekend? I was thinking since she hasnt seen "City of Angels" with Nicolous Cage and Meg Ryan. But iam going to ask her later what movie she wants to see. Iam going to probable play a nice song that she knows i dont know which song its going to be though. It maybe playing favorites by the starting line. very very nice song. OR i just might make up one. Only becouse iam a pimp(LOL)just kidding I wish that i was but i dont need to be, because I have a girl friend I have a girl friend!!!!!!! LOL This is so cool I can wear a suit to the prom so i dont have to rent a Tux. man let me tell you I looked at prices and they are expenceive. And i am going to church tonight. That should be fun. But i have to start working now so i uess i will let you go bye bye
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[09 Mar 2004|11:59am] |
Hey every one or just my homies how is everyone today my day is going great. But any ways i found out that i might be going to prom. If every thing works out with the girl that i was talking about yesterday i guess she said that she, likes me it hard to belive it though because no one here really likes me like that and its kinda scary. I am a fraid i am going to scure everything up just as usall i want to go and then i dont its going to be expencive as heck and i am broke. But shes a nice girl and iam going to go anyways just to see what will happen i hope she really means what she said. And i am a fraid that i will let myself take another fall for someone and get hurt iam just tried of being messed with then thrown in the trash can like a toy's batteries that ran down and cant be replaced. But as i said that iam going to give this a chance. But i am goign to take it real slow i mean slow. I am not going to let myself kiss her till its all said and done and thats going to be a while. Also i have to let her make the frist move i cant stand to lean in for a kiss then them back away it doesnt make me mad, but its embrassing like i dont want to look like a horn dog just looking to fool around. I am still a virgen and i dont plan to lose it till iam married. I want it to be specail. I hope she understands it, I hope that she wasnt even thinking about it!!!! I am not saying that she isnt atrractive shes a hot momma!!!(lol) Shes a great gall I just hope that she does really like me. she probly does but better safe then sorry. I will admet to every one that reads this that i like Amanda.LOL i really do ok there i said it fanilly!
Its a brand new day I found out today that i will take the fall for her if shes ask i will go any where any time to just just hold her hand And fill that i belong here and it will be beautiful when i kiss her for the first time. And this time iam going to make it right right where i need to be to make this something speacial i am going to make it wait untill I cry and scream for her and yell her name out lound so every one can hear me.
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[08 Mar 2004|01:31pm] |
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You know i am the biggest sucker of all time. Every time i tell myself that iam not going to like someone or go out with anyone it happens again. i hate it i dont hate this person but iam still afriad of getting hurt all over again and there is just no way she should like me iam fat and ugly. why is she talking to me i..... i dont know its stupid to think that someone like her likes me why why why????? I need to lose weight and be more active to even be atractive at all. Some one tel me kick me back down to earth i dont belong in the clouds at all. I hope she does and doesnt like me she is to hot for me but then yet there is a part of me that says i have a chance. Any one have any suggestions. i guess i will just find out on my own
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[05 Mar 2004|01:57pm] |
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I miss a girl named marry. She is the sunrise when you wake, and the sunset when you sleep. the sweetest thing ever is her smile and her her satin lips. when they touch mine my mind is a world wind of romace is there any one out there that hdas a feeling like i do for this girl. I met her in the summer but i told her i love her in the fall. But she is my down fall and i had the greatest fall for her. I felt that there was nothn left for me but i was wrong.
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